a big step.

Hi friends! 

Can I share part of my life with you ?

I am having gastric bypass surgery early next year.

My weight and I have battled it out my whole life. It keeps going up and my health keeps declining. This is due to several things: My eating habits are out of control. I am not exercising and I am taking a lot of medication for my bipolar disorder.

It's time to get healthy. Now or never. It is not good for my body to be 160 pounds overweight.


I have started a 90 day medically monitored diet as an insurance hoop to jump through before I can be scheduled for surgery.

I am learning so much about nutrition and the huge lifestyle change that is having gastric bypass surgery.

I'm not scared anymore, just really excited to have a second chance at life. I'm proud of how far I've come and I can't wait to continue to become the best me I can be- physically, mentally, emotionally. The list goes on and on.

What do you want to know about gastric bypass surgery? Ask away.


Hope you are all well,

Nicoolmama

I can and I will!

I started Weight Watchers again three days ago. I had been paying for the monthly online service for months and finally thought- Either use it or be fat, Nicole.

I so don't want to be fat my whole life.

Today was my weigh in day. It comes at a good time, since I just vomited my brains out for a straight day(stupid 24 hour stomach bug). I am down four pounds in 3 days!

 I had joined a gym awhile back but unfortunately it closed down.
Rather than spending the money on another membership, I am determined to use the outdoors as my workout. Summer is the perfect time for it!

I will not give up.
I will learn a healthier lifestyle to better myself and my family.
I will succeed.

What will YOU do?

Hai, hai, hai!!

Did you think I gave up on this 'ol blog and weight loss in general?

Never!

As long as I am alive, I will keep striving to be the healthiest me I can be.

Here are the new developments:

1. I joined a gym and have been going- like, a LOT.
2. Because of said gym going, I have now kept off over 15 lbs! It could quite possibly be a little bit larger than 15 because at my heaviest, I wasn't really weighing myself.
3. In the month of March- I have had one friend tell me how skinny my face is getting and another friend tell me how amazing I am looking- all of which motivates me to keep on keeping on.
4. The next size down BUTTONS! It is not yet comfortable enough for me to wear the clothing beyond the buttoning, but HEY- I am getting there!!!

I am noticing myself getting stronger with each day I exercise, and I want to document my journey.
So, I will be here, in this space, more.
Care to join me?

Slow and steady wins the race.

Today is the end of Day 5.
And two things have happened over the course of today and yesterday:

1. I am having mad urges to overeat. Weight Watchers teaches moderation and healthy portion sizes. I am fighting myself right now to follow that.  And I am winning that fight, but it's still REALLY hard.
This last week, I bought a new pair of jeans-in the biggest size I have ever worn-a size that is embarrassing.  THAT is my motivation every time I want to reach for more. I am motivated to go down a size, and then more, but am focusing on this first step down. I am so eager to fit comfortably in jeans a size down!

2. Water, oh water. I know that I know that I know how important it is to get that water in however I am seriously struggling to get that agua in my mouth. On Monday & Tuesday I managed to drink 8 oz. On Wednesday I got down 16 oz., and today it was 24 oz. I am getting there, it's just really slow. I have thrown out the 8 cups a day {because I believe we need much more than that} and my ultimate goal is half of my body weight in ounces every day. I will get there.

I am excited to reach Sunday and complete my first week on plan! I am even more anxious to weigh in! I have been sneak-weighing this week, so let's pray it stays good. :)

Thanks for taking this journey with me!

Am I doing something wrong here?

I ask that because this is way too easy.

I fought to do something about getting on track with my eating for some time. I wish I would have done this sooner. It is not difficult at all for me to track my food and stay within my points.

In fact, I am having a difficult time EATING all my points. I have filled my snacks and meals with plenty of fresh vegetables and fruits, including TONS of variety. Since most fruits and vegetables are 0 points on the Weight Watchers plan, I still have so many points to eat.

It is really important that I eat all my points to lose weight, so I am trying. I went to bed last night with 3 left and I had to push myself to use that much.

I mean, look at my breakfast:

A lot of cereal and a banana for only 7 points! 

This type of meal will keep me full for several hours. I think I may just have to start eating a bit fattier snacks, like peanut butter with my apples or adding nuts as an afternoon snack. 

I guess there are worse problems, right?

the first step feels soooo good.

   The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. - Confucius


Here is my first step. I joined Weight Watchers on Saturday and began my first day on the plan yesterday.

My Thoughts on Day Two:
-The eating and tracking parts of this new lifestyle are much easier than I anticipated.
-I am disgusted at just.how.much. food I was putting in my body.
-I am not ready to talk about what the number on the scale reads, but I will share that with you down the road.
-I am taking this week to focus just on eating within my points and keeping track of every piece of food or drink I put in my mouth. Next week I will tackle exercise.

I am so excited to begin this journey!! Hot Mama Nicole-here I come!